I was organizing my emails earlier, attempting to reduce my mailbox
size (believe it or not, I've accumulated over 7 gigabytes of
work-related email) when I happened across my ex's emails. I knew I
shouldn't have read any of them, but every time I came across her
emails I couldn't help but read them and revisit the past. Today was
no exception.
So I read the last of our emails and took a look at the pictures of us
that I was able to save and, well, despite being the one who left her,
it breaks my heart remembering how much pain I put her through that
moment. Which is precisely why I keep our emails--I want to remind
myself of the pain that I caused another human being to keep me in line
as much as possible.
Reading our emails reminded me of a certain Filipino song, which I
think really captures what she was possibly feeling during that time.
Every time I hear this song being played on the radio, I can't help but
remember her. Here are the lyrics of the song (sorry, no translations
this time), I'll try to post it if I ever figure out how to embed music
files here:
Artist: Zelle Song: Sabihin
Bakit wala ka pa?
Kasama ka'y parang nag-iisa Pangakong magmamahal
Alis ka rin pala
Sabihin mo na kung babalik ka pa Para di na maghintay Sabihin mo na kung aayaw ka na Para lang malaman ko Hmmm...
Naririnig mo ba ako? Sigaw ko ba'y walang tinig Nakaya kong walang imik Naririnig naman ako
Sabihin mo na kung babalik ka pa Para di na maghintay Sabihin mo na kung babalik ka pa Para lang malaman ko Hmmm...
Coda: Iiyak na lang... Iiyak na lang... Hey yeah hey yeahhee...
Bakit wala ka pa? Naririnig naman ako
Chorus: Sabihin mo na kung babalik ka pa Para di na maghintay Sabihin mo na kung aalis ka na Para lang malaman ko
I can really picture her singing this song to me. Now I feel bad.
written by roy on
November 5, 2009 at
04:43 PM
filed under Music
At the mountain trip, we had DirectTV, so obviously we turned it on all weekend to listen to XM Radio's '90s channel. Man, that brought back some memories!
I continued the 90s kick back here; I even started watching some really old music videos. Remember this one?
A couple of thoughts after watching this video:
I didn't realize All-4-One was so ... unphotogenic. These guys would never be a group today. Unless they won some TV talent show.
In that video, four guys run after a single girl and accost her. Is there something not creepy about that?! And even worse, as the video progresses, it looks like the four guys are hitting on her. I can tell you, in real life, if four guys were all trying to hit on the same girl, they wouldn't nearly be as friendly and break out into harmony.
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written by soulfly on
November 5, 2009 at
02:43 PM
Jampacked ang Conspiracy Bar! Bukod sa mga kasama (mga tagasuporta ng pambansa-demokratikong kilusan), nandun din sina Jess Santiago at Bobby Balingit.
First time kong makaharap si Axel Pinpin na nakakausap ko na thru email bago pa siya nabilanggo.
Sa event na yun, na-reaffirm ko kung saang politika gustong lumakad ng puso't kaluluwa ng pagsusulat ko.
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Bakit ko ba pnapakinggan ngayon ang Borderline ni Madonna? Jologs..
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written by polygamist on
November 5, 2009 at
03:26 AM
filed under Thoughts
Like everyone else in the country, I paid my respects to my dad and grandfather just after the weekend. I went together with our helper, whose been serving the family since she was in her teens. She knew my dad and my grandfather well, so I sometimes like asking her questions about my deceased kin, especially about my dad.
So while walking amongst the gravestones, we had another conversation about them. According to our helper, my dad and grandfather didn't get along well. One reason why they always quarrelled was because of my father's womanizing ways which my grandfather didn't approve of.
In the middle of her story, I interrupted our helper, "I'm glad I'm not like him."
She said, "Who are you kidding? I'm sure you have a woman at the side."
WTF? Yeah right. Where there's smoke, there's fire, I understand. But there's no smoke. She's imagining things.
About six months ago, a
friend who was working closely along side adobe's flash application
development team told me that they received a prototype of Flash for
iPhone. The prototype allowed the iPhone to have less than half an hour
of battery life using flash. They then sent the prototype to apple and
suggested incorporating this prototype iPhone flash into the iPhone OS
in the next update.
Apparently apple sent this letter back thanking them for being
interested in developing a working version of flash for the iphone but
because the prototype is so processor intensive, and awful for battery
life, they would not include it with their OS because it is just not
good enough. They suggested using the gpu instead of the processor to
render flash. Then they suggested building a seperate app for flash and
web browsing because there was no way apple could endorse flash
integration on the iphone in its current state.
Adobe apparently didn't want to release the app under their name either and it never showed up in the app store.
A long story in short: Adobe sucks at programming, then apple told
them they sucked at programming. If they want to release that shit
under the name adobe so be it, but it sure isn't going to be endorsed
by Apple.
written by roy on
November 4, 2009 at
02:55 PM
filed under Ramblings
There's always been something very ... amateruish about Microsoft's web properties. Even today, something about bing.com's homepage bugs me - the logo reminds me of those times when I hook up my laptop to a project for a presentation, and the projector only projects at some ridiculous resolution which distorts my screen. Or when people insist on watching 4:3 aspect ratio television shows on HD TVs without switching the ratio accordingly (just because you have that real estate doesn't mean you need to use all of it)
Anyways, the new MSN.com homepage was the first MSFT property I saw and said: "Wow, they're really getting their shit together."
Check it:
Beautiful use of white space - incredibly content heavy, but doesn't feel like it. Great use of accent lines (I'm a sucker for that style). Fantastically clean ... wonderful use of grid design!
And the logo is even passable for me! (It still feels a bit far to streeeetttched for me)
Music :: Red Hot Chili Peppers - Hard to Concentrate
written by roy on
November 4, 2009 at
02:25 PM
filed under Ramblings
So much I want to write about, especially with regards to Crisp's comment smackdown, but this other thing is really bugging me.
Does anybody remember me writing a post about the idea for a browser game I posted a couple of years back? I can't, for the life of me, find it anywhere. I vaguely recall it was like Gazillionaire for the web.
